"How do you say goodbye to someone you never had?
Why do your tears fall for someone who wasn't yours?
Why is it that you miss someone you were never with?
Why do you love someone whose love cannot be yours?"
These could be just a few questions on the realization that struck you as you continue this idiocy that seems to last forever.
The 20-something you have always had this dilemma on holding on having this infinitesimal shaft of hope that eventually everything will work out as you wish or on letting go in thoughts of despair that everything will only turn out to be just in your head and never in reality. Whenever you ponder on it, you proved to yourself that you should've stopped a very long time ago because all this time you've been waiting for a bus on a train station. Everything is impossible and out of your reach no matter how you forcefully reach your hand for it.
All these years you thought holding on proved that you are really strong but today, on this very second, for the very first time since God knows when, you're struck by the realization that all this time you were wrong because what makes a person strong is not by holding on and enduring years for someone who will never be yours but by letting go of everything without even having a sideways glance. Long time ago, you thought waiting and having your unwavering faith on the future you've imagined will be at your advantage but you realized it could also be the other way around and today you grasped the truth behind "one problem with gazing too much into the past is that we may turn around to find that the future has run out on us" and the years turned out to be nothing but a total waste.
Having this predicament doesn't involve anyone but yourself. It's between you and your friggin' feelings. You need to break up with your feelings. Today, you make a pact with yourself that from now on you will totally let go of what you have held for a very long time. The process may take time but atleast you have gathered all the courage you need to finally have this resolve (after the internal conflict that seem to last for eternity) to start now, on this very second. You will be a chrysalis undergoing metamorphosis. It may seem nothing's happening on the outside but a big change is happening on the inside. Within you! Your transition into maturity is incorporated with total letting go of your idiocy and the product of your juvenility.
As you turn into a butterfly, you will make sure that everything you held for a long time will turn into nothing but a part of your cocoon. On that moment, every emotion and feeling you once felt will become ashes in the recesses of your memory. You might remember a name and a face but not the feeling anymore. That same feeling which caged you and never let you fly with your own colorful wings, the reason why you feared flight in longingness that he returns but would never happen. You were once blind but now you are starting to open your eyes to the reality and in time you will surely get out of that wrap and fly without contemplating on anything else and your eyes will be fully open to see the beauty you never saw while you were wrapped up. You are firm on your decision that from now on you will enjoy your life as a 20-something, explore as much as you can and enjoy every flight you make, you will no longer be afraid to fly and would no longer think of anyone's return. You will no longer wait for a dumb bus on a wrecked train station.
There might be things that we don't want to let go of and people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go is not the end of everything but a beginning of a new life and you start to build that life today to become a whole new person tomorrow and beyond.
Why do your tears fall for someone who wasn't yours?
Why is it that you miss someone you were never with?
Why do you love someone whose love cannot be yours?"
These could be just a few questions on the realization that struck you as you continue this idiocy that seems to last forever.
The 20-something you have always had this dilemma on holding on having this infinitesimal shaft of hope that eventually everything will work out as you wish or on letting go in thoughts of despair that everything will only turn out to be just in your head and never in reality. Whenever you ponder on it, you proved to yourself that you should've stopped a very long time ago because all this time you've been waiting for a bus on a train station. Everything is impossible and out of your reach no matter how you forcefully reach your hand for it.
All these years you thought holding on proved that you are really strong but today, on this very second, for the very first time since God knows when, you're struck by the realization that all this time you were wrong because what makes a person strong is not by holding on and enduring years for someone who will never be yours but by letting go of everything without even having a sideways glance. Long time ago, you thought waiting and having your unwavering faith on the future you've imagined will be at your advantage but you realized it could also be the other way around and today you grasped the truth behind "one problem with gazing too much into the past is that we may turn around to find that the future has run out on us" and the years turned out to be nothing but a total waste.
Having this predicament doesn't involve anyone but yourself. It's between you and your friggin' feelings. You need to break up with your feelings. Today, you make a pact with yourself that from now on you will totally let go of what you have held for a very long time. The process may take time but atleast you have gathered all the courage you need to finally have this resolve (after the internal conflict that seem to last for eternity) to start now, on this very second. You will be a chrysalis undergoing metamorphosis. It may seem nothing's happening on the outside but a big change is happening on the inside. Within you! Your transition into maturity is incorporated with total letting go of your idiocy and the product of your juvenility.
As you turn into a butterfly, you will make sure that everything you held for a long time will turn into nothing but a part of your cocoon. On that moment, every emotion and feeling you once felt will become ashes in the recesses of your memory. You might remember a name and a face but not the feeling anymore. That same feeling which caged you and never let you fly with your own colorful wings, the reason why you feared flight in longingness that he returns but would never happen. You were once blind but now you are starting to open your eyes to the reality and in time you will surely get out of that wrap and fly without contemplating on anything else and your eyes will be fully open to see the beauty you never saw while you were wrapped up. You are firm on your decision that from now on you will enjoy your life as a 20-something, explore as much as you can and enjoy every flight you make, you will no longer be afraid to fly and would no longer think of anyone's return. You will no longer wait for a dumb bus on a wrecked train station.
There might be things that we don't want to let go of and people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go is not the end of everything but a beginning of a new life and you start to build that life today to become a whole new person tomorrow and beyond.